Just returned from the dinner thing...
And I am not sure how I did....
In recent times, there was this massive over-eating, with lots of pain following it and feeling sick for 12 hours. Right now, I am in no pain and i don´t feel sick. So I think there is some progress, but on the other hand I don´t feel empty or anything. I guess I reduced my eating, and it´s a start, but I am not happy with myself.
Can I be happy with myself after eating like a normal person?
No!
I think I want too much in too little time. I should be happy. but I would like to be proud of myself...I put on my most skinny trousers when we went to the party, and it was tight from the beginning, and I still don´t fear it breaking up or anything.
I don´t know...
I am hollow emotionally right now. I don´t feel a thing besides this nasty migraine starting over again. Maybe this is a sign of too much pressure I put onto myself. I wish I would feel hollow physically and more confident emotionally.
I am so hoping for the new year to start, the holidays to end and the strenght returning to me.
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Besides issues at home, I'm feeling the same thing! I've been feeling hollow (great description!) emotionally and just not happy with myself in general as far as food issues...
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Let's hope for a good start for the New Year, it's only about 1.5 days away now! I'm getting optimistic! :)
arg how to know if you're in a good place or not? that is such a hard question, I deal with it all the time... I'm glad your asking the questions, though, seems like that's ultimately the only way out of the maze.
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