Well, the Dinner things are over.
And I wasn´t a good girl. Well, what a surprise.
Maybe I am not strong enough yet.
Maybe right now I cannot ignore the skale or water gain or flu shots or anything.
I had a thought some time ago tonight:
What if you could wish for being a different person? What if you could lay down in bed at night and make a strong wish and the next mornig you would get exactly what you wished for?
What would I wish for?
Here it is:
- I wish to be extremely thin and fragile on the outside.
- I wish to be extremely strong and independent on the inside.
- I wish I could just shut myself up and listen to the people around me. Everytime I say something it comes out completely wrong and I get in trouble. I wish I would learn to shut up.
- I wish I could see the world through different eyes.
- I wish to be more positive.
Tomorrow I will fear the skale, but I will get on it anyway (to be precise, I got two scales now, they are sitting next to each other; one has extreme changes depending on which exact place you stand, the other one is more stable but a little bit too low.... I put myself in trouble here...).
And I will post it. I will be embarassed, but I will post it anyway...
The dinners are over. The next grown-up evening appointment will be next saturday, but it will be without food, and I will be the driver, I hope...
I have to be strong, I have to be strong.
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Aww don't worry about your dinner party--
AntwortenLöschenRemember you aren't feeling too well, yknow? That is a lot of stress on the body and the mind. Sometimes you DO have to eat and it looks like tonight you had to~ It will be ok <33 :)
It's really funny the things you wish for; I find myself wishing for the same exact things.. I suppose when you think of it, we are slowly trying to make our wishes true right?? Our endless quest to get thinner, and in that sense we gain control, etc. :)
I'm sure your scales will grace you with good numbers! I hope they do :)))
*(and if they don't, remember, tomorrow is another day, and no one here, at least me, is here to judge you~)*
You will be strong, and you [are] strong hun!
I can't wait for your next posting :)
Also, thank you for sharing about your smelling habits! lol! I really feel soo embarassed for doing that :S But it's good to know that I'm not the only one :)
Stay lovely! <33
qp~
Medica
AntwortenLöschenI feel weird commenting twice on the same post so I post here
I'm really happy that you might start riding It is very rewarding and more exercise than you might think.
I would love to chat more on the subject of riding. Post comments on my blog if you want to chat!
Best of luck to you,
Ginger