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I am sabotaging myself big-time.

I nearly reached my first goal weight two days ago, and since then I am in a manic haze of eating, drinking, making excuses and eating again.

I am not working out, I am having cake, I am having booze, I am chewing all of the time, even chocolate.

I hate myself.

And I have no idea why I am doing this to myself. What am I trying to tell myself?

I felt so good, near to that weight. I felt light and clean and almost pretty.

Today the BF will have to work extra hours, and I will meet a friend for coffee.

Here´s the plan:

No food during the day.

Coffee as much as I like.

No food during the meeting with the friend.

Maybe some vegetables tonight at home, but liquids only if possible.

More later.